I have had the incredible gift of wonderful teachers teaching me incredible lessons. I learned early on that I needed a great deal of "input". I taught myself Self-Hypnosis at a very young age (12) out of self defense (see my Nightmare topic on the Mystic_Moose website). I studied the mind and whatever fit into what I called Inner Management and Spiritual Growth whenever possible. Thanks to my Mom, I went through Evelyn Woods Reading Dynamics and learned to read at breathtaking speeds. I studied Witchcraft and ESP and Psychic Phenomena in great detail, reading some 100+ books on the subject in 10th grade alone, including books on the so-called dark subjects (Crowley, LaVey, etc.). I helped start a coven and wrote a 60 page term paper that year on "The Persecution Of Witches Over The Centuries". (That's a whole other story...got persecuted myself!!!) At an early age, I became a permanent student, a seeker on the path. At age 14, I studied Tarot and began giving readings to anyone who wouldn't tell my parents. By age 16, I was quite good.
Late in 10th grade I met the most incredible man - Mark Waterbury - who was one of the Science teachers in our High School. He happened (ha, no coincidence...) to be a Scientology OT 7x (before OT 8 was released) and started a Training Club. Now that may not mean anything to anyone, but let's just say he was about as high up as you could go in their training, which is very significant. Four of us kids were given the gift of all the Scientology training we could absorb, without the programming and greed conditioning of the institution. Pure knowledge given in love. It was amazing. By age 17, my "eyes" were wide open - by that I mean I could see the whole game, all the pieces of the puzzle, this life, other lives, the keys to life. I quickly left behind Witchcraft and Hypnosis, because I had found what I thought was the source of true power - Inner awareness combined with God's focus and the flow of Universal Energy. I received the Gift of Knowing how to Know. But I had no "real life" experience, and no real awareness of the Will. I was very aware of The Goddess from my study of Paganism, and that has never left me. I had few tools but lot's of knowledge. My intuition and awareness was wide open, full blast. I sought more answers - many more.
Problem was, people could no longer relate to me. My family thought I was weird, or worse. I left home immediately after High School and joined on as a staff member of the local Scientology Church, downtown San Diego, and moved in with a group of fellow staff members - commune style. Even there in the Church they didn't know quite what to do with me. They tested me and determined I was a Natural Clear, and working on OT 2x, although I had no "formal" training. It was a very odd experience, being "in" yet being "out" of my very own group. I wanted to have more training, but they didn't know where to start me, as I kept "testing out" of everything (EP's & FN's in their terms).
Anyway, to make a long story short, when they finally got it figured out, they decided I needed to give the Church a whole lot of money. I went to my Grandfather and asked him for $10,000, and he went through the roof. Further, since he was Head of Law & Justice Administration in San Diego he decided that Scientology was a cult that needed to be squashed. He succeeded in actually shutting down the local Church in San Diego!!! To protect themselves from this 'legal' onslaught, they promptly proceeded to kick me COMPLETELY out of their organization. Tore up my Sea Org Contract, etc., and forbade me from returning to Scientology this lifetime. I won't bore you with the painful experience, but needless to say, I was devastated to my core. This was my Path! How dare they! I hurt in places I didn't even know I had. And I was angry. Angry at everybody. Seething, fuming, smoldering, depressed, and whacking people with Energy like there was no tomorrow. It was not pretty. It was not supposed to happen that way - that was not supposed to be on my path - why - how - what - SHIIIIIITTTT!!! Pretty funny, huh? Well, that's what happens when you have your "eyes" open, with no tools in your tool belt. I have since realized that this was a pure blessing. My guardian angels have ALWAYS watched over me. More on that another time.
So, I had to move back in with my family as I was persona non gratis with the Scientology staff and had no real job. What a torturous event THAT was. I went to Grossmont College to study Pre-Med to explore my Healer side. School was great, but home-life was very painful. I finally just upped and joined the Air Force to get the hell away from my very suppressive stepfather. I volunteered for Special Operations and became a Combat Controller. I actually had a great time! Learned a lot about me, about games playing, about the US, about the Military, about life. Great way to learn focus. (You can check out my professional resume on my website, I've got some links to some of what I did there.) While in the Military, I still read and meditated, and studied. I studied people. I studied my relationship with the God of My Heart. I grew. I had healed the pain of getting evicted from my Path and once again sought to recover my abilities. I found that my most enjoyable moments in life were while I was underwater on Scuba - communing with Nature in her most pristine form. So I did that whenever possible. Since that was part of my job, it made it easy. What a joy to have Mother enveloping me. (another whole story...I have over 4,000 dives, all over the world...) From this I truly learned the Gifts of Body.
After the Air Force, I kind of drifted in and out of various training modalities. I was learning to appreciate the few tools I was given, and gather life experience. I got married; went to school - this time Pre-Dental (can't stop healing!); realized I couldn't afford it; and moved to the Virgin Islands to teach Scuba Diving. (Pause for the sounds of Steel Drums and Palm Trees in the breeze...) After realizing that there was no money in Resort Dive Instruction, I came back, got a "real job" and taught myself computers. All the while, I was looking at the Spiritual side of things. I kept my sanity by creating energy balls and pyramids and floating things like that around my space. Silly tricks but it helped because I was a kind of alone in my own reality. I had to shut down a bit telepathically on the Freeways of LA because of all the "shouting". I would often "shout" back, but I seldom got clear responses. I prayed for help. I got books - I read books. I wondered a lot - I wandered a bit. I lost my edge.
Years passed. I became a yuppie and really got involved with my work. My wife decided that our relationship needed a change (I was no longer the man she married - which in fact was true) so while I was out of town on business, "ignoring her", she found her solace elsewhere. The reality of that was not OK with either of us, so denial kicked in on a MAJOR level and I started shutting down my psychic abilities like power switches. Looking back, it was like watching a power outage in LA - section after section goes black and then silent. It was much more peaceful in the silence. I didn't have to "see", I didn't have to "hear", I didn't have to know. I didn't want to. But in doing that, I had little to nothing to give to anyone, including myself. Anyway, after the divorce a year or so later, I vowed to NEVER shut myself down again. I had never been that low, that shut down, that much in denial. It was quite the lesson. I learned the Gift of Giving to Myself.
I moved to the West Side of LA and immersed myself in my work and my self healing. I eventualkly found my way back onto my path. I came across the Berkeley Psychic Institute the same way many people do - I went to a Psychic Fair, got a few quickie readings; wanted more; got full 2 hour readings; and wanted to do it all! I signed up for the entire Clairvoyant Training Program which is about 2+ years of training on Reading, Healing, and understanding, and a very big commitment of time, money, and energy. But WOW - what an eye opener! The THIRD Eye, that is! If you want to truly understand what you "psee" in this world and want to see things very differently, work on your Clairvoyant abilities. You wont regret it. Michael and Raphaelle Tamura were my main teachers who are two incredibly gifted Psychics with huge Spirits and big Hearts. From them I truly learned the Gifts of Spirit.
I 'found' A Course In Miracles (ACIM) during my Clairvoyant Training program - I literally fell over the books in a bookstore in San Rafael. (I always pay attention to these types of signs ;-) I bought them and put them on my shelf. I asked Michael about studying them and he wisely told me to wait until my BPI training was done. At the time I was a bit perplexed but followed his advice. It was good advice, as is everything that Michael has shared with me. I now understand the trouble with mixing training modalities - just one at a time for best results! After graduation from BPI I read the ACIM books and then joined a one year study group lead by a very educated, very capable therapist (Allan Rosenthal) who used ACIM as his primary counseling methodology. It was very intense, and I learned a lot. I still do the Daily Lesson every morning and read the text. I am currently attending a discussion group at the Palo Alto Unity Church, From ACIM I learned the Gifts of Heart.
The Blue Right Use Of Will (RUOW) book came into my life a few years after ACIM. We had just moved to Denver and my Uncle Fred, a man I respected more than anyone else in my whole family, passed-over. (I talked to him about it, and it seems that he was "done" and was in a big hurry to take his next step.) I inherited his huge metaphysical library and have STILL yet to get through the hundreds and hundreds of books I now own. RUOW was in amongst them. It was the first book I read out of his library. AHA! THIS was what was missing from my experience! Will. The Mother Goddess was calling me, and I answered. I was grateful then, and am even more grateful now. I bought all the RUOW books and cried/laughed/moved/screamed/ through each one of them. From this I learned the Gifts of Will.
At one time I actively participated in the RUOW list on the internet (ruow@world.std.com) which has given me the Gift of Community and the Gift of Sharing with like Willed people. Gifts I treasure and appreciate.
I have since moved back to Norhtern California and have been doing Readings and Healings as a part of my study program. I've learned that reading People teaches me almost as much as reading books! I still read Tarot, and am a huge fan of the Voyager deck. I've had the opportunity to attend two of James Wanless' training classes (the author of the deck) and he is an amazing teacher. I'd be delighted to give you a reading sometime!
Remote Viewing has always been a topic I was fascinated with, and I have had the opportunity to do some in-depth training with a former military Remote Viewer. If anything, it has fine-tuned my ability to "psee" by learning how to reduce the noise that occurs when you are looking at a person place or thing. It has some very interesting structure and protocol, and it has a very high repeatability quotient. More on this later.
Well, that about brings you up to date on my metaphysical training. Oh, there's a bunch of other things I left out, stuff about UFO's, more on Wicca & Paganism, Vegetarianism, The Michael Material, Crystals, Cayce, Psychics in the family, Speaking to "Dead" People, and many other things, but - those are stories best left for another day.
Love and Peace,
Bud
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